Update

Well, I ended up throwing up Friday night, which made me feel a little better about things. I felt sick again Saturday night and most of yesterday and last night. All that gives me just a little bit of confidence. My boobs still don't hurt near as bad, but I read online that that it can be normal for them to not hurt as bad after a few weeks. I am just hoping and praying that everything works out okay this time. I am so tired of stressing and constantly worrying over every little symptom I have. I am ready to start planning and being excited and talking to people about it. Anytime someone congratulates me or tries to talk about it, I get worried and nervous and just can't bring myself to get excited and happy yet. I hate feeling this way because I am not at all like this normally. After this week, if everything goes okay on Thursday, Jason wants to start cleaning out the new nursery and start working on some things in there and start converting Christian's room over to a toddler room. I found some really cute bedding on Pottery Barn Kids for Christian's room. We still need to get a dresser, a nightstand, and a twin bed. I think I am going to go ahead and order his bedding this week, so it doesn't end up selling out. We should find out what we are having around August 19. I will be 18 weeks then. We are going to have our gender reveal party on the Friday after we find out. I think Jason and I are going to have the lady put what it is in an envelope for us, so we can find out the same time as everyone else. I think it will be neat to have videos and pictures of everybody's reactions especially ours. Although Jason and I don't care at all what we have. We just want a happy healthy baby. Only 4 more days until the big doctor's appointment. I am so nervous for it!

Bad Feeling

I know I have been so negative this pregnancy, but I am constantly worried. I haven't felt nauseous since Tuesday night and my boobs don't seem to be as swollen and sore. I have a really bad feeling about my appointment next week. I am dreading going, be cause I just know I am going to hear bad news. I swear I really don't think that I can try again for another one if this ends badly for us. I have been so stressed for the past month and a half and if I'm not stressed then I feel horrible. I know I could go into the doctor every week if I wanted to, but i really don't think that will make me feel better, considering there is nothing they can do if I do miscarry this early. Jason is getting really frustrated with me worrying so much. Guys just don't understand completely what it is like. I know he worries too, but it isn't constantly on his mind like it is mine. I really hope I am proven wrong this time on my bad feeling, but I am usually right about these things. If my worrying gets worse over the weekend then I might call and see if I can get in on Monday, but I am so close to my appointment I would rather wait until then if I can. I am hoping that my cold is what has me thrown off on things.

10 Weeks

I am 10 weeks pregnant today! I weighed in today at 132 again. At least I am maintaining and not gaining according to my scale. I don't think mine is real accurate though, so I will be anxious to see what I weigh at the doctors. They will get on to me if I haven't gained anything, but I am hoping that I haven't. I had a high weight the last appointment because of all the eating I did over Memorial day weekend. Once again I am a little worried because I didn't feel nauseated last night. I will say I am getting a cold and I am very congested right now, so that could have been over shadowing some of the nausea feeling. My boobs are still sore but not as bad. They seem to not be as swollen also. One thing I have been noticing a lot of lately is that I have to burp constantly. It keeps me up at night even. I also feel really gassy but it's like I can't get rid of it. I try and nothing hardly comes out. It is very frustrating! The last couple of nights I have not slept well at all. Before last night it was because I felt so sick and my stomach hurt and then yesterday I started with this cold so I couldn't breathe at all last night. I am going to head to the store later and pick up some medicine to help knock this cold out. I have one more week until my doctor's appointment. I am so nervous for it. I do not know how I am going to make it through that. I keep having flash backs of the last time when there was no heartbeat and how disappointing that was. I really do not want to go through all of that again. I am ready to be excited and to start planning things, but until I get past that appointment I just can't.

So HOT

The last several days it has been unbearably hot outside! It has been in the mid nineties and there has been heat advisories out for the last three days. I have been feeling so miserable in the evenings and I think a lot of has to do with the heat. This past weekend if I was outside I spent it in the pool at my parents house. At night when we have come home I end up taking a nap at 6:30 and waking up around 8:00. Then Jason and I watch a movie after we put Christian to bed. This next week is supposed to be just as hot. I remember the summer I was pregnant with Christian (2007) being ridiculously hot also. Don't get me wrong I love summer and normally I say the hotter the better, but I am having a really difficult time enjoying this summer. It is making me feel even more sick than usual and I hate not being able to be outside for as long as I like. Maybe we will have a cool July like last summer!

Getting Sick

Yesterday evening after Jason got home from work we headed to the grocery store. I probably should have ate something before I left, but I thought I would be okay. I was miserable at the store and by the time we got home I had to get something in my stomach. Be fore I had a chance to grab a quick snack I started puking in the kitchen sink. Of course nothing came up really since my stomach was empty. I just hate throwing up! I will say I laid down for a little bit after that and I ended up feeling better especially after I ate dinner. I hope this doesn't become an evening ritual. I need to do better on always keeping something in my stomach. I got some fruit at the grocery so that should help some!

9 Weeks

I am 9 weeks pregnant today! I weighed in this morning at 132. I am really nervous for the next week to see how things go. This is when I miscarried the last time. I am sure I will be overly paranoid from now until my next doctors appointment. Ever since Monday I have been feeling good in the mornings and by noon I am exhausted and have to lay down. I have been feeling really sick in the evenings all week. This is how I felt when I was pregnant with Christian. Maybe this means I am having another boy! I haven't really even been thinking in that direction yet. I just really want to get past my next doctor's appointment and everything be okay before I start thinking about too many things. I really need to get myself motivated in the mornings to get my housework done because I am getting really behind on all of it. Jason cleaned the house the other day pretty good, but I need to go in and tidy things better and the laundry is getting really out of control. I am usually so on top of things around here, but lately I have been so exhausted by the time Christian goes down for his nap I have no energy to get things done. My boobs are still sore and I have been having some mild cramping in my lower abdomen every once in awhile. They say this is normal and it is just the uterus stretching. I haven't had any spotting, so I am not worried too much about that. I wish I could relax instead of over analyzing every little symptom I have. I will say my clothes are getting tight. I have felt so bloated this time. I hope some of this eases up in the next couple of weeks. I am not looking forward to getting into maternity clothes and I am running out of things to wear to work that are comfortable. I hope these next two weeks go by fast! I am really ready to get the next appointment over with!

Waiting It Out

I have decided not to call the doctor just yet. Yesterday I felt pretty sick again. It wasn't as bad as I had been feeling, but it was worse than Saturday and I felt pretty bad last night. I think if there was something wrong like last time it wouldn't come and go. It would just gradually fade out completely as my hormone levels dropped. I think that is what happened the last time any way and I am pretty sure with in a couple of days I felt almost normal the last time. Other than a few slight symptoms. I am a little less worried about it, so I am just going to wait until I freak out again. I will be so glad once I have my doctors appointment in 2 1/2 weeks. I just know I will feel much more confident at that point. I still have pretty strong pregnancy symptoms right now, so I feel a little better. My boobs are still really sore and I do still feel sick. It's just more manageable right now. I'm so tried of stressing and not being able to enjoy myself yet. I am reading to be excited and starting planning and talking about it, but I can't bring myself to do that just yet.

Worrying

I started worrying a lot last night again. I suddenly didn't feel quite as sick as I was feeling. Then when I woke up this morning I still didn't feel as sick. I did feel a little nauseated just not quite as bad. Before I was feeling so sick it was to the point that I couldn't hardly function. I felt like I was dying, now I feel a normal amount of nausea that is managable. The only thing that I have done different is that on wednesday I started taking my prenatal vitamins again. I had been taking them all up until about three or for days before that. I started feeling really sick and I couldn't stomach taking the pill. My mom told me that the extra b vitamin in them would help with the nausea and that I had to take my vitamins no matter what. Well, that kind of freaked me out so I forced myself to take them again. I am really hoping that the vitamins are what is making my sickness more managable. I think if by Monday I am still feeling better I am going to call the doctor and tell them that I have a bad feeling and explain the situation and see what they want to do. The nurse practioner told me that if for any reason I felt worried just to call and they would do an ultra sound to give me peace of mind. I hate to be a pain to them and one of those overally paranoid patients, but I hate not knowing after what happened the last time. I would rather go in now and find something out rather than waiting two and a half more weeks until my next appointment. I really hope I am just being paranoid but I can't help but have bad feeling again.


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8 Weeks (2 Months)

I am 8 weeks today! I weighed in this week at 132. I have been feeling sick from the time I wake up until the time I go to bed. The nausea is so awful! I am trying not to complain too much, but with work and taking care of Christian it is beginning to feel unbearable. I don't know how I am going to make it through the next 6 weeks if this continues to be this bad. My boobs are a lot more sore also. That I can handle. It has been really hard to eat healthy lately because nothing sounds good to eat. I will be glad when I can start back on a healthier eating schedule. I have been really tired lately also. I take a nap pretty much everyday now when Christian does and I fall asleep almost every night on the couch. It has been one rough week for me this past week. I haven't really accomplished anything and I hate that. I am hoping that once I am out of my first trimester a little bit of that nesting will kick in and I can start getting some things done around here. Right now I am doing good to keep up with my daily responsibilities. I am looking forward to my next appointment. I am really anxious to make sure everything is still okay. I don't have a bad feeling yet. I am just nervous for it. If everything goes well for that appointment I think I am going to celebrate by having a little shopping spree for myself and the baby. I never bought anything for the baby last time because I had such a bad feeling. I am waiting until after my doctors appointment just to make sure everything is okay and then the shopping can begin. I am really anxious to get started on Christian's toddler room and the new nursery. I am really wanting to have a gender reveal party for when we find out what we are having. I thought it would be fun for all of our family to be able to find out together. Plus it makes it a little more exciting since we didn't do anything fun and exciting on sharing the news that we are pregnant.

So Sick

I have been feeling so sick the last few days. When I was pregnant with Christian the last time I was pregnant I would feel sick in the late afternoons to early evenings. This time I feel sick from the moment I wake up until I go to bed. The thought of putting anything in my mouth makes me want to puke. There is absolutely nothing that sounds good to me. I have been forcing myself to eat turkey sandwiches, since those are bland. If I don't eat then I feel even worse, but I can't find anything that sounds good to eat. The heat has been really getting to me also. That seems to be making the nausea worse. I am trying not to complain because I would rather go through this and everything be okay than the alternative. I have to say I am so miserable right now. I am hoping that this will ease up some in the next couple of weeks. I don't know if I can make it through another 6 weeks of this!

Doctors appointment

Today I had my first official doctors appointment. They did an ultrasound and gave me an official due date of January 20, 2011. The baby's heart rate was 127. They said that was really good! I weighed in at 133. I was not thrilled with that weight but I had a big long weekend of lots of eating and I have been feeling really bloated lately. Hopefully I will keep my weight undercontrol like last time. My gag reflexes are super sensitive right now also. I go back to the doctor on July the first to be able to hear the heartbeat and meet with the doctor. I am super nervous for this appointment because this is when we found out I had miscarried the last time. Hopefully all goes well!


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