A Little Nervous

Well, I have to say I am just a tad nervous right now. I am two weeks late! I'm not super nervous just yet because I have only had one period since having Jaxson and it takes a while to get back on a schedule after having baby. My cycles are never that regular anyways. I had been thinking about this all week and hadn't said anything to anybody yet. I finally said something to Alisann while we were walking yesterday and she thought I should take a test. I of course did not think that was necessary yet and I really wanted to wait until after my 30th birthday. I said something to Jason while we were out to eat tonight and he said that he had a feeling that I was pregnant. That got me a little worried. Don't get me wrong I would be so thrilled to have another baby and we definitely want at least one more child and possibly two more, but I can't help but feel extremely overwhelmed and stressed at the thought of having two 11 months apart. I also would be stressed for a couple of selfish reasons. I am working so hard to get down to a good weight for me and I am getting close. I also was looking forward to a nice relaxing summer of not feeling sick and being able to drink. Like I said those are very selfish reasons. I took a test when we got home tonight and it was negative, but I have to say I am not completely convinced only because I didn't really have to pee so there were only a few drops on it and I'm not sure if that would have been enough to register the correct results. I think I will take one in a couple of days if I haven't started by then. We are still wanting to start trying once Jax is a year old, we will be happy no matter what happens. We just might be a little more stressed than what we would have liked!